The doorbell just rang and I know it was the UPS man. I was very bad..in a good way..and ordered something 170 dollars worth of books from Amazon. It was Garin;s fault really..he wanted some Ska DVD, but since I HAD to place an order….
I got Adoption Nation for 57cents!! Which is great because I need to read it with my highlighter so I can really know my stuff with Mr. Pertman..and I did NOT want to really buy it. I just went crazy on the whole adoption book stuff.
The first came yesterday “Adoption and Loss: the Hidden Grief” by Evelyn Burns Robinson. Read a bunch last night before ER..very good stuff. As I go though them I will post more.

There was a post today from an adoptee who wanted to do a piece on Moms..our side, the loss and grief..I was gonna do a little linky linky BUT the forums are down in the moddle of the day!! What’s with that! Anyway, I PM him and sent him the link to the ring. Yeah, we got stories..and we are talking!! Peronally, I feel ANYTHING that can get out to the general public that we don’t just “move on” is a good thing. Oh good, forums back..linky done!

I just got off the phone with my best friend, Lauralei. We have a date for our …AHHHHH!! 20th High School reunion!! I didn’t know if she knew it as all the info I got was from stupid Classmates.com. Turns out she didn’t and plus we had to bemoan that the damn thing is in JULY..which means summer clothes and bare arms and the two pasty white girls might have to look tan and healthy?? Awwww…Ok forget that! But what to wear??
Plus we had already decided that we would get a room in the hotel that the reunion was in, but they foiled our plans and it is not in a hotel this time! Poopy. I think we are gonna get a close hotel room anyway..and we discussed going stag..aka no hubbies!! Which will be more fun and don’t have to worry about what to do with the children, but kinda sucks coz I just asked Rye the other noght if he would go and he said yes, and now I have to be nah…don’t come. That kind of stuff bruises his ego.

Oh the other thing that she and I discussed was that The Cult is playing in NYC. I find this very exciting..and I think we shall try to go. It’s hard when your best friend lives like 130 miles away and you only get to hang out like 3 times a year and that’s if you try really hard. So we plan ahead and get these big dates going. It’s the only way it works. I do really wnat to decend on her this summer though. I have promised Scarlett to take her to a “real” beach..which means, to me, Long Island and home.

Huh, just looked out the window and it is snowing. Suppose to get a big “noreasterneer” this weekend..umm like tonight. The sun is still shining though. Weird.

I have sooo much laundry to fold..really like 5 loads done..one in the dyer now and one more that needs to be washed. Plus I have to work tonight, and tomorrow..and they want me to work Sunday..and I have crazy Barb on Monday..and I can’t resechedule her again..so I have to actually DO the drawings that I have not done! Yeah..I am NOT going to get this laundry done. Might help if I stopped reading and writing this stuff..bu that is just NOT going to happen. I give up. I am obsessed.

I find myself “thinking” Blog all the day. My thoghts, even when I think things to myself now, are in Blog form..like I am writing. Be thankful that I did not actually get to write the saga of the new Microwave..though it might be seen as funny, but maybe it is really boring.

Oh lordy, one of our “regular” customers at the resturant…like I really like this woman and have known her for a while..she use to come and see me at Williams hell hole and buy knobs for her new house..so my work co-hort and her got into a dicussion on adoption somehow..and it turns out she has 3 adopted kids. And she said stuff to Mer, like “Doesn’t it make you feel good to know they are happy and that you did such a good thing? My son has no desire to search” Ugg, ugg, double fucking ugg! Mer said she had bitten the inside of her mouth to prevent her from being “less than civil” at some of the comments, but she went there and said the truth!!! Yeah, Mer!
I got the heads up and look forward to an interesting conversation with her next time she feels the need to eat Salmon. I know the poor boy’s mother had to have been a BSE mom as he is about my age..so I intend to tell her a bit about that whole time and what his natural mothers experience is probably like. The son frequently comes in with them so I actually hope he is there too. It will be good for him to hear it too.

You know how Wendy’s is a pro adoption resturant? Well, stick two loud mouth natural mothers in another and guess what you get? We might not be a chain place with big advertising, but the stories DO get told. Kinda like dinner theater.

Must stop writing now and go fetch girl child from school!!!Then must stay away and get ready for work! Hit send and leave laptop!
Oh..it hurts!