For the second time at least, a post about some thing not personal, has inspired very personal Anonyomous commentary. You know that poster who just happens to hint or speak in such a way that one goes..”hmmmm…who could you be..could you really have some other knowledge?” and then one must run to their tracker and search IPs and locations. Enough of a tone, that you..or at least I, and also…
I think I am kind of lost right now. I just feel…removed somehow. Maybe it is a seasonal thing? I was off the the boards, off adoption, alot last summer, but I chalked that up to Garin’s impeding surgery..but again, I feel it now. I have a sense of bordom, of restlessness. Stalemate. Come to think of it, that’s probably a direct reflection on my relationship with Max. Yes, dear…
And hello you. Yes, summer is upon us, and for me at least, that means lots of money, lots of free time, and an ever-present nagging sensation to get out of the house. So an idea pop’s into mine head. I want to come visit. It’s been a long enough wait for me, so I’m sure it’s been a long enough wait for you. So… yeah. When’s a good time?…
Disgusted said… I have read your blog with a mix of anger and interest. I find it boggling that you would be at peace with your decision to place your child for better than fourteen years until someone online changed your mind. Well then you have not read too well. It was not SOMEONE online, but a completely different viewpoint and new understanding and facts about adoption that I had…
don’t you just want to TOUCH him???? i don’t know how you contain yourself. My dear IRL friend KT ( Hi!!!) wrote this to me in a meassge. Regarding Max, of course. And the anwser is a wholehearted YES!!!! Truthfully, I am dying to. I don’t know how I contain myself either. It will be two years in July that I have known where he is. Oh to resist the…
PHAIR’S ADOPTION FEARS 2006-05-17 22:32:40 – Singer LIZ PHAIR is terrified by all the adoptions taking place, insisting the process “screws up” children. The ROCKET BOY singer, who is adopted herself, is concerned that a baby forms strong bond with the natural mother, which could be emotionally damaging to the child when it is put up for adoption. She explains, “I don’t think you can be adopted without being a…
Better than certain electronic things that are suppose to notify you! I was looking back in my certain mailbox…updating another space where I do keep all my correspondace from Max in one place and share. Surprise..I had totally missed a message from him! It was about his pirate bandaides package, but also mentioned THE LETTER… “Oh, and Momma and Poppa G got your letter. Yeah… I forgot a very important…
I have been stretched thin lately, so tonight..after working and going to an grand opening to a friend’s new tatoo shop, I wanted to hit the blogs. SoA has eating up my internet time, as has been working on the Origins Websight. I get to Suz’s and I am just stopped dead in my tracks. SLAM…she hits home, straight into my heart and mind with THIS for mother’s day. I…
…will never leave me, I fear. I just closed the back cover. It was a tremdous read. I was obsessed. I took it to work. I read it on the playground. I read it in Freindlies while the kids ate dinner. And though it all, in public, it would rock me so hard emotionally so that I became so choked up inside and tears streamed down my cheeks. It is…
The subtle coercion in adoption counseling often does not seem real. “Coercion” is such a harsh word. Adoption is seen as a decision, a wise choice; made by selfless mothers, for the good of others, for the betterment of her child. We give up our babies for adoption. In adoption counseling, we work on making our adoption plans. Adoption agencies do not truly violently rip children out of wailing mother’s…
it’s mixed nuts! Been so out of the loop! Wednesday morning I woke up and relaized that I had been hit with a flu…fever, chills, bad sore throat, aching bones, sweats, headache..all but the belly heaves. I lost two days in bed. Two beautiful sunny days which I was planing on gardeneing, and cleaning, and getting the Easter stuff together, plus Rye’s day off, kids home from school, etc… Recovered…
“You know that your ambitions are delicate, and the fact that certain individules have found it within their rights to play dice with their loyalty or play politics instead of carrying water has been disconcerting. Yet, if you can let the petty things remain small and keep your heart and soul focased on the vision for a better world that you have been nursing, you’ll find that all the games…
Man, I still have to pee. Lousy personality, but that waiter kept the cups filled. This AM I took a little ride and met up with Suz for a little brunchie-brunch…didn’t really taste the food that we ordered, but loved the talk!!! Look to see the mirror image on Suz’s Blog of me snapping he pic..lol. Yeah, we are goofballs. Laughed while we did this!! The rest of the folks…
and wait some more. I KNOW they have had to recieve the letter by now. I sent it Monday. It is Saturday. The postal service is not that bad. I keep on checking my bulk mail box and deleated any crap as I don’t want them to be lost in it. I keep checking my reglular mailbox too. I keep yelling myself that they will needs time to digest, process,…
So just to keep ya’ll on the edges of your seats…I have heard NOTHING re the letter yet. Wel at least form the parental units of my son. Max does not hink that they have recieved it yet which makes me think what is wrong with the postal system in this country? It really did not need to go that far..and I sent it Monday. Geez … Anyway, I did…