“You know that your ambitions are delicate, and the fact that certain individules have found it within their rights to play dice with their loyalty or play politics instead of carrying water has been disconcerting. Yet, if you can let the petty things remain small and keep your heart and soul focased on the vision for a better world that you have been nursing, you’ll find that all the games of the world cannot sway your steps. It has been said that there is nothing in the world more powerful than an idea whose time has come. You are currently in possesion of such an idea, however humble or personal it may seem. Let the waves you seem to be making serve as a testament to your influence. It would seem that the greatest gift you have to offer is giving people an opportunity to cooperate, and setting and example for how they may too take that often insurmountable evolutionary step.”

I kid you not..this is what my horoscope says. I read it and it brought tears to my eyes. I was at work and I swooped it up and put it in my bag..such a keeper! I mean maybe I just like it becasue it makes me sound soooo special, but still…kinda encouraging, no?

My birthday is the 24th of this month. I know I am not “old” but as I like to say..this is the oldest I have ever been. Sometimes, I look in the mirror and I do see 40…even though I will be 38, but that 40 is close!! Granted enough people do not believe I am this old..which is nice..and they look shocked when I say I have an 18 year old son..lol. I see them doing the mental math..thinking that I had a kid at age nine or eight, since general consesnus is that I look under 30. I don’t know what is wrong with these people since I see the wrinkles, but whatever..I don’t mind getting ID’s still!

I remember tryng to imagine what I would be like now. Never even had it close. I recall thinking about the turn of the millanium and thinking…OMG (but spelled it out because who really thought in typing shorthand then?) I will be so old then, but that was years ago now. Never really could ee into the future, Never thought ever that I would have four kids, never thought I would be s much online ..oh Rye..sorry for all that I mocked you and the internet..never thought I would be…me, but here I am.

I still find it weird that people say they look up to me. I don’t get it..really. I get asked advice..like the internet adoption Dear Abby..and it is OK..I really don’t mind at all, but it still shocks me..lol. And I am not trying to be all fakey humble, nor stop folks from doing it, but it is still weird. I like to know that I am approachable, still human, and all…but as a disclaimer…dudes..I don;t know everything..I will try to help as much as I can, but I am just human, just like all of us..just muddling though.

I like it when I do feel like I helped…that is nice, but no pedestal please..OK. Even if I am a Taurus and we like to be right. Even if I am such a Taurus that I really KNOW I am right! lol. And just a little bit stubborn about things like being right.

Even if my horoschope says otherwise.
{Shhhsuhhhh..thats my ego talking}

But I hope that it is right..and WE can change things in current adoption beliefs and practices. And I am stubborn enough to try..so if you’ll want to think I am wise and listen to me on this….Cool.